40 Days

So, we've made the move from Center, TX to my hometown of Beaumont. It's been 40 days since we've made the move. 40 days of job hunting. 40 days of following leads, but nothing panning out (so far). 40 days of praying without ceasing. 40 days of trying not to panic.

Let's talk about the number 40. It rained for 40 days and 40 nights in the Bible when God wanted to cleanse the Earth. Moses was on the mountain for 40 days. The Israelites spent 40 years in the wilderness searching for the Promised Land.Goliath came for 40 days before being struck down by David. Jonah warned the city of Nineveh they had 40 days until God would overthrow the city; they repented in those 40 days and God spared them. Jesus fasted for 40 days in the wilderness.

A lot can happen in 40 days. A lot can happen at the end of 40 days as well. Throughout this time of instability, I've done nothing but pray. Now, I knew that hard times were coming; I knew since the beginning of this year. I've looked and searched; but nothing yet. Still, I haven't given up. I've been out here for 40 days. I KNOW my God has something for me. Who knows, maybe tomorrow my change will come. Even if it doesn't, I'll still continue to trust and believe and have faith. God's always on time. 40 days. I wonder what will happen at the end, since my end is here (well the end of my 40 days).

Mommyhood

Happiest moments in my life: becoming an AKA, college graduation, the day Shaddean proposed, my wedding day...and then...

I found out I was going to become a mom (June 19, 2010). This was by far the best day of my life, until...February 10, 2011 @5:56 when my 8lb 6oz angel was born.

My angel is now 5 months and these past 5 months have been the busiest, eventful, non-sleeping 5 months of my life, and I wouldn't change any of it! I never knew that I could love like this. Sure, I love my husband, but the love I feel for my daughter is different. I look at this little girl, and I smile on the inside and outside. She brings so much joy tome and Shaddean's lives.

She's 5 months and her looks have changed so much!

(Pics: Nala @birth, 3 months and 5 months consecutively)

She's such a cute little girl! And although she looks nothing like me, she's still the best looking baby I know! She has the biggest smile! Her smiles definitely make my day.

She hasn't started solids yet and while she drools almost nonstop (only stopping when she's asleep), she still hasn't cut a tooth.

She is definitely a daddy's girl though!...and Paw Paw's princess...and Nana's baby...and Nanny's angel...she's just spoiled, lol! She's the only granddaughter and the first grandchild (older by 15 days!).

Every time I look at her, I want to be a better person. I look at her and I think "she's my greatest accomplishment". I'm filled with so much love, when I look at her or think of her.

I'm new to motherhood, but...I'm definitely looking forward to the new and exciting things that being a mother brings!